Every good thing comes to an end, but to every end comes another start

A Lone Ranger

narcoticluv — Sat, 17 Nov 2007 11:54:50 +0000

Hmmm, How I feel right now? I feel like Im at the top of the world, yet theres so much more to conquer. I feel like I can do anything, carefree, unstopable, but alone… I dont care anymore, I do what I want, the way I want to do it… I do it to play around, I do it to make my name proud…

A lone ranger… Im back again to who I was….. Im a gentleman, Im a player…. Im a friend, Im a traitor…. Im a lover, Im a foe, I dont care what they think….. I dont wanna know….

Thats right….. Im feelingless….. Thats the one word….. I have no faith anymore…. Nor Fear…

I have her by my side, And I love her, But time will tell its tale, and till then…

I have but one sole goal…. To do my best in what I do… And to do it my way….. Im gonna make it to the top, and ure gonna love me for everything that I am!!!!

My Final Night

narcoticluv — Thu, 08 Nov 2007 11:57:50 +0000

One final night,
Stars shining bright,
That final vision
in my mind.

Of Beauty and Grace,
A Solemn sweet face,
She glides tonight, dancing
in the final moonlight.

Embraced as one,
The Stars in her eyes,
One Lifelong kiss,
The final Goodbye.

If I could spend my last night,
I’d spend it Only with you,
My silver Nightingale,
I am in Love with You,

My Friends, My Life

narcoticluv — Tue, 23 Oct 2007 11:01:48 +0000

I have my friends…. But then there are those ppl who mean the world to me…..

I have my family, my sister and my parents…

I have my cousins who I love to the core…

Then I have my brotherss who I love too much for words….. This one’s for them….

My brothers Tyler, Woodsy, David..

Tyler, my first friend in Tamworth. We are identical images of each other apart from the height, and my way better looks…. Hehe
He is such a person that I dont need to understand, nor i need to explain myself to.. We somehow just do..
I trust him imensely, and there isnt anything I could never tell him.
We’re always together, yet we arent.. The lesser we hang out the closer we get… There more we hang out, the closer we still get..
There isnt a requirement to ‘mantain’ our friendship….. I love him loads, bros for life…

David, no we don’t talk that much, but we know everything abt each other….. Yeah I trust him imensely with everything about myself..
Hes been there fro me through all troubles and joys, I could never repay him for his friendship…. I love him loads too
If there was ever anything abt me, he’d know it first… Bros for life…

Woodsy, the third person Id trust with anything abt myself.. No once again we don’t talk all that often, but thats the best thing about brothers…
We dont need to prove that we’re no. 1 on each other’s lists…
Mum is awesome, and she’s accepted me as her fourth son… I love them loads…

Yes I could never differentiate between my 3 brothers, and tho I dont tell them everything everytime… if there was anything in my life, They’d be the first to know…

And finally I will have to give dedication to my 2 angels Kaitlyn and Kisani….

Kisani, for being there to understand me, yeah we’re twin sisters…. Haha, She’s cool, and again Ive learnt so far that I can trust her, and she trusts me…. I will pray nothing ever changes this relation… Love Ya…

Kaitlyn, HAHAHA…… Kaitlyn, what can I say abt her?? We’ve been thru the most together….. She been by my side from the start, we had an enormous disagreement, (The problem with PMS-ing at the same time)….. but at the end nothing could steal our hugs away…. There arent enough words to describe how much she means to me…. Shes truly special in every way… Especially when She told me, Im different.. Im not like australians, and an aussie girl isnt worth going out with me….. I can never forget that one statement of hers…… Thank you loads for being exactly who you are…. And no I could never consider you as an australian…. Luv ya loads…

Return

narcoticluv — Sat, 29 Sep 2007 12:25:08 +0000

The lady I loved So purely…..
The pain only a loved one could ever cause
I wouldn’t have it any other way
No I wouldnt, You’ve been my strength and my force…

She gave me a reason
A reason to smile
A reason to discover myself
A reason to strive

Ive seen and Ive Heard
The truth Ive come to learn
The face behind the smile
The truth behind the name

Thank you oh beloved
Thank you My sweet love
You’ve taught me something precious
A priceless life long lesson..

Im back from deep within
A self identity…
Its time to show the world
What dwells deep within…

Enough is Enough

narcoticluv — Thu, 10 May 2007 08:19:59 +0000

I Have hade bloody Fucking hell enough……..

Controlling your anger to the extend you start shivering the whole day is not a good sign……

All I Have left is freaking, hatred, disgust, anger, and Im sick, sick, sick……!!!!!!

Trying to be Mr Nice guy SUCKS HARDCORE!!!!! I Miss My Ban Of Brothers back home….. I miss being the biggest asshole you can ever find….. I miss the guys from VS, I miss being a bloody Ah Beng, I Miss RULING the bus and being the one everyone looks to when they get a stupid idea and need someone to do it, AND YES I MISS THE BLOODY CALL OF SINGH!!!

Chasing Matts, who try to act big, around the school with a knee injury is what I do, Bossing Juniors is what I do, Ruling is what I do….

I made the biggest mistake of my life by coming here and freaking trying to be a nice guy……. I REGRET IT!!!!

REGRET REGRET REGRET!!! I got what I deserve…. now no more…

I’ll come home Pavan, I definitely will…….. Maybe never to return here again….. But I have a few things left to complete…… You will get who you left at the airport…… Enough is seriously Enough

No Answers

narcoticluv — Thu, 10 May 2007 08:19:52 +0000

Neither am I upset Nor am I hurt……. Coz you are happy

I am however curious, As memories flood back like an unsealed tapped

The many lanes which cannot be closed, the many patches which will remained uncovered….

As gay as it sounds it is true, My happiness will always lie in your happiness…

I want to know tho, the many things you said, the many thoughts you spoke…

About How I will never know how special I am to you,

How you didnt have a crush on me coz you loved me 2 much to have
a mere crush

How you had never met another guy like me and Words couldnt really
describe what you were trying to say

How I was your shining knight, and you were my magical fairy

How you loved me more than you did a month ago

How did that all disappear so suddenly?? Do you really feel nothing anymore?

Am I left in a tale webbed to compound me, or are you simply neglecting how you really feel?

Are you hiding everything away just because you can?

Are you telling yourself you dont anymore because of a simple mistake?

Or are you afraid once again of the love you get…??

Now who do I look to, to tell me all i need…

Who do I look to to tell me all they can?

Who do I look to, to give me my answers once and for all…

Somethings which can’t be spoken

narcoticluv — Tue, 17 Apr 2007 06:57:18 +0000

My heart is confused, My mind is in a daze
Once again my mind and my heart struggle to resolve
The heart asks does she? And the mind asks would she?
The heart answers she doesnt… The mind answers she does..
And when I’ve always listened to my heart, Countless reasons appear to listen only to my mind today..

Sometimes all I wanna do is cry,
When I can neither ask her nor does she tell..
All I need is a signal, A simple reassurance, Just a sign
I’ve searched but the more I search the more I resign..

Again my heart and mind squirm in discontent
My mind says its alright….. My heart says it isn’t..
Shes too precious to me… She’s all I need, All I want..
But then why does it seem I’m just another one?

I love you baby, I really do
Must I ask if you do too?
Do you love me as much as I do,
Can you ever love me as much as I love you?

I want to talk to you,
My love I really do.
But what I want to say,
It’s just too hard to do.

I wanna ask you If you love me.
I wanna ask you how much.
I wanna know if I can be,
All you care about..

Why do I feel you don’t?
Why does my heart screech through?
What am I looking for?
Just a simple, I Love you….

You are my everything
But is this all there is?
Am I just your friend
Or am I something more?

Please answer me my baby,
I really need to know
But if I can never ask you..
How will you ever know?

An Angel

narcoticluv — Sat, 17 Mar 2007 12:06:10 +0000

She silently passed me the key to her heart, as her presence encouraged me to tread upon the path, she gave me her confidence through her crystal eyes and let her lips whisper a silent tale……. her touch as gentle as a baby’s kiss, and her embrace as gentle as a dove in the silver light… her enchanting smile lit the candle in my heart, coz without you my baby, Im just torn apart………… I am yours as you are mine, I shall shield you forever my love…… Coz I am but truly madly deeply in love with you. Yours n truly only yours……